Shantanu Panigrahi
2021-07-10 00:34:13 UTC
My hospital incarceration of 2008 autumn, before I ever heard of
Monneka Tahir, knocked my faith in God senseless and all my clock
checking to try and get Him to talk to me proved fruitless. I
maintained a diary again from 20 July 2012. It was then that God came
to me again to show that my clock checking for messages were being
rewarded by revelations from Him in which science and religion were
being married in one's search of truth and understanding. God had
engineered real life events in my life and I know this as a matter of
fact because I was following instructions from him from my clock-
checking habit of seeing messages. I was consultating God on what I
wrote in Religious Forums and on Twitter in addition to actually
physically writing what I did in emails to state institutions as I
fought my way through the British Justice System. I set up an
experiment that lasted me the better part of 6-8 years, the middle
number being 7. It was through the use of a digital clock to try and
communicate with any deities that may exist. On 21 March 2013, I
changed my mind and realised that there is a Personal God. This was
realised through a combination of rationalising events that took place
in my life, renewed deja vous-type experiences and further positive
sightings of 7 at critical times from my advaita clock checking
habit. It has been a roller coaster ride but God is watching and has
made things happen for me. The diagnosis in the end was 'persistently
delusional disorder'.
What do I learn from that? That I should not take instructions from a
perceived God using the tool of communications that I devised of
digital clock time sightings as messages of positive
action/affirmative answer to do a particular task in my personal life
by numbers 3, 6 and 9 and the remainder numbers meaning negative to
the proposed task. For the record since 20 July 2012 have been doing a
great deal of digital clock checking for sightings of SEVEN as a means
of confirm that God was revealing Himself to me and showing me that
what I have been doing in my personal life was known to Him and had
his blessings. I was testing. The logic was if He was so great and
could do anything he liked like generating the universe, he would have
no problem in acting through my mind to take me to see him regularly
when the clock times showed a total of 7, since 7 is well known in
religious circles as being the Numerological significance attached to
God. I do not know of any other way of communicating with God so that
was my only and final attempt to resolve the question of whether there
is a Personal God.
I would say: I am coming to see you now not having any idea of what
the time was, and on the understanding that if I saw the time as a 7
on the digital clock (12.04, 12.13, 12.22, etc) it would mean that you
God have acted on my mind and body and got me to walk over to the
clock with precise timing such that I would see the 7, your special
number. I did this repeatedly over hundreds of times especially over
the past four months. I got numerous sightings of 7 but in the end
when evaluating the results found that there were equally as many
negative numbers so that God was not coming to me this way when I
needed it most. It should be borne in mind that I first started
developing a means of communicating with God using a digital clock
back in 1999 not as a means to test his presence, but to get
instructions from him on how to lead my life to get the best outcomes
for myself. I decided that I had to now test with an elaborate single
number 7 system of whether there was really a God that I was assuming
earlier as coming to me through digital clock messages. This
culminated in this autumn's trials and the third capture by the
police. The only way to set this personal project in place was to put
to God that He must monitor what I do in my day to day living and
advise me accordingly on what was the best course for me to follow to
attain my goals.
I chose the use of digital clock in which certain times seen by me
when I visited the clock would mean that He wanted me to do something
particular in relation to my material involvements, with the rest of
the clock times being negative (no messages) or that He had nothing to
say. I decided unilaterally to select No 7 to mean that a positive
message had been received by me for which I needed to act on something
urgently if I was to survive in this world with dignity. During the
past 13 months for example, with the numbers in a time of say 2.41 or
9.43 adding to 7, these would mean to me that I must act on something
pressing in my day to day existence in a particular way. Whatever I
have learnt today about the world and life over this period of time
has been the result of such constant checking for messages from God
and checking out of my thoughts for His approval on what I had to do
for my action on the issues that I was involved in my daily life. This
is as scientific an approach that I could practically design. I had to
put up with taunts from my fellow human beings for my bizarre
behaviour of clock checking.
I simply had to go through the process if it was the last thing I did
in my life even after periods where I started getting variable
messages or no message in those years. The results I got were proof
enough for me. My questions were all answered to me as God had shown
to me through the digital clock checking for messages method that He
truly exists. Furthermore, God asked me to write this particular blog
unlike the previous ones that I have written myself without any
reference to Him in most cases. as a petrol station worker in
Sherlodge Garage with Sathi. And there was no interaction with God any
longer through the advaita clock checking mechanism. I find that I do
not now take any directions from God to guide my truth path like I had
done for a considerable period of time and which I have documented in
my diary file. God's instructions to stop clock checking for messages
on May 18, 2014 - today is a major turning point in my life as God has
made it very clear to me that I must not clock-check for specific
messages of guidance from Him any more.
What I used to do to receive God's guidance has been blogged but now I
am required to live like a mere mortal, not as God's Agent, and see
how that goes. During the past four months in particular I was engaged
in intensive work to check out the operation of the British Justice
System and understand how it works. This work was only accomplished
through detailed clock-checking for guidance from God on what actions
I should be taking in all my major involvements. I thought that clock
checking for messages could become a permanent thing for me now that I
had found a way to live according to God's wishes for me. But this
evening it has been made abundantly clear that this was only a passing
phase in my life. God has effectively forbidden me from any further
clock checking for guidance on my major actions including what I write
and blog in my website. He had attempted to stop me from clock
checking earlier but I found reasons to continue with the process as I
had not fully secured my objectives that I had in my involvements.
Part of this was to study God's nature. My temptation to attain
absolute snow-white perfection in what I did and wrote got me to
continue with the practice. Now I cannot ignore God's instructions for
me any more. So I have promised God that come what may I will not go
to seek guidance from Him on whatever bothers me in my life. I am
required to live like a human being for the rest of my life, and
abjure my Godly or minimum Avatar status. This evening's instruction
from God for me to stop clock checking for messages may or may not be
an indication that God has rejected my continuing advances to Him as a
source of intelligence and wisdom that I have benefitted from
enormously in the past. I have attained major achievements through the
process that I am proud of. So I felt that it was only right that I
should continue with seeking God's guidance for me. But God has said
No, for his own reasons that I can only speculate on. I am to live
without further assistance from Him. I must resist all temptations to
clock check in the future. So I have this evening promised Him that
come what may, I will never do any more clock checking for messages of
guidance. I am what I have updated myself with from all those months
and years of clock checking of my actions and writings.
Clock checking will prove meaningless from here on. So significant is
this turning point in terms of what I do in my future life that I
needed to blog this on my satya-advaita blogsite immediately upon the
realisation of what I am required to do. Date and time of posting
this, 18 May 2014, 9.27pm-9.31 pm British Summer Time. Then came the
26 July 2014 Update: I returned to advaitic clock checking several
times since this post when I felt desperately in need of having my
thoughts checked by God before acting and looking for messages from
Him in case I needed to act urgently in a particular way when dealing
with very tricky situations. God did come and help me again and again
when I needed him to do so. But today I feel that I have come to the
end of my mission as I do not wish to write any more new blogs and
tweets unless I need to from requests or prompts by others. So I am
once again terminating clock checking of my actions. The reason that I
am today alive with dignity that I feel I have achieved for myself as
a human being is that as I gradually got convinced through the clock-
checking advaitic mechanism that I developed for communications with
God that God was real and genuinely wanted to help me in my quest for
the truth and truth accommodation, I submitted myself to the will of
God in everything important that I did and was engaged in. I have
maintained a diary as a record of how I sought God's Guidance and
acted on it without harbouring any doubts that it constituted a
genuine conversation with God.
The clock checking mechanism is worth trillions of pounds. A sighting
of 7 (for example 8.17 am is a 7) was a message that I had to act on
something important in a particular way, with the rest of the numbers
of 1-9 meaning, 0 signifying rakshasas, no action was required or OK
to what I was proposing to do on some matter. God has helped me
immensely through such communications. It is a method of checking
one's thoughts with God's advice. It means that He is within us and
can make us think in certain ways. Indeed, it demonstrates that God
lives our lives as human beings and is in full control. The individual
does not realise that this is the case, so incredibly the interference
in our thoughts is hidden from our minds. It required me to approach
God through the device of a digital clock to get Him to make His
existence known to me in no uncertain manner. It was 100 per cent
reliable when it mattered to the issue that I was engaged in my
material existence. For anyone wishing to practice Brahmanism, that
is, total surrender to the will of God, the process of clock-checking
of one's actions needs to be followed.
When I examine my yoga over the past 10-15 years it is clear to me
that this process is absolutely necessary for it is the only means by
which one can actually acquire proof of the existence of God for
oneself. I returned to advaitic clock checking several times since 18
May 2014 when I felt desperately in need of having my thoughts checked
by God before acting and looking for messages from Him in case I
needed to act urgently in a particular way when dealing with very
tricky situations. God did come and help me again and again when I
needed him to do so. Following further truth-seeking studies with God
using clock checking to get to the truth, I have learnt that the only
religion created by God (Sri Krishna) for the land of Asia south of
the Himalayas is the original religion of Hinduism. All the others are
derived from the guna consciousness gods of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva.
Of these Christianity, Buddhism and multiculturalism are divine or
sattvic religions inspired through Brahma, whereas Islam and modern
Judaism are evil tamasic religions inspired through Sivaji Panesar. On
8 September 2014, a day on which I found myself in total seclusion,
including from God, as having exhausted all my opinion-sharing truth
seeking activities on the internet, following a period of study that
had lasted about 6 years, and on completion of all my clock-checking
activities comprising the direct consultations with God that I
narrated in a diary that I maintained from 20 July 2012 until this day
to describe the precise details of the reasons for my daily actions.
was not doing clock-checking any more to look for messages from Him.
Monneka Tahir, knocked my faith in God senseless and all my clock
checking to try and get Him to talk to me proved fruitless. I
maintained a diary again from 20 July 2012. It was then that God came
to me again to show that my clock checking for messages were being
rewarded by revelations from Him in which science and religion were
being married in one's search of truth and understanding. God had
engineered real life events in my life and I know this as a matter of
fact because I was following instructions from him from my clock-
checking habit of seeing messages. I was consultating God on what I
wrote in Religious Forums and on Twitter in addition to actually
physically writing what I did in emails to state institutions as I
fought my way through the British Justice System. I set up an
experiment that lasted me the better part of 6-8 years, the middle
number being 7. It was through the use of a digital clock to try and
communicate with any deities that may exist. On 21 March 2013, I
changed my mind and realised that there is a Personal God. This was
realised through a combination of rationalising events that took place
in my life, renewed deja vous-type experiences and further positive
sightings of 7 at critical times from my advaita clock checking
habit. It has been a roller coaster ride but God is watching and has
made things happen for me. The diagnosis in the end was 'persistently
delusional disorder'.
What do I learn from that? That I should not take instructions from a
perceived God using the tool of communications that I devised of
digital clock time sightings as messages of positive
action/affirmative answer to do a particular task in my personal life
by numbers 3, 6 and 9 and the remainder numbers meaning negative to
the proposed task. For the record since 20 July 2012 have been doing a
great deal of digital clock checking for sightings of SEVEN as a means
of confirm that God was revealing Himself to me and showing me that
what I have been doing in my personal life was known to Him and had
his blessings. I was testing. The logic was if He was so great and
could do anything he liked like generating the universe, he would have
no problem in acting through my mind to take me to see him regularly
when the clock times showed a total of 7, since 7 is well known in
religious circles as being the Numerological significance attached to
God. I do not know of any other way of communicating with God so that
was my only and final attempt to resolve the question of whether there
is a Personal God.
I would say: I am coming to see you now not having any idea of what
the time was, and on the understanding that if I saw the time as a 7
on the digital clock (12.04, 12.13, 12.22, etc) it would mean that you
God have acted on my mind and body and got me to walk over to the
clock with precise timing such that I would see the 7, your special
number. I did this repeatedly over hundreds of times especially over
the past four months. I got numerous sightings of 7 but in the end
when evaluating the results found that there were equally as many
negative numbers so that God was not coming to me this way when I
needed it most. It should be borne in mind that I first started
developing a means of communicating with God using a digital clock
back in 1999 not as a means to test his presence, but to get
instructions from him on how to lead my life to get the best outcomes
for myself. I decided that I had to now test with an elaborate single
number 7 system of whether there was really a God that I was assuming
earlier as coming to me through digital clock messages. This
culminated in this autumn's trials and the third capture by the
police. The only way to set this personal project in place was to put
to God that He must monitor what I do in my day to day living and
advise me accordingly on what was the best course for me to follow to
attain my goals.
I chose the use of digital clock in which certain times seen by me
when I visited the clock would mean that He wanted me to do something
particular in relation to my material involvements, with the rest of
the clock times being negative (no messages) or that He had nothing to
say. I decided unilaterally to select No 7 to mean that a positive
message had been received by me for which I needed to act on something
urgently if I was to survive in this world with dignity. During the
past 13 months for example, with the numbers in a time of say 2.41 or
9.43 adding to 7, these would mean to me that I must act on something
pressing in my day to day existence in a particular way. Whatever I
have learnt today about the world and life over this period of time
has been the result of such constant checking for messages from God
and checking out of my thoughts for His approval on what I had to do
for my action on the issues that I was involved in my daily life. This
is as scientific an approach that I could practically design. I had to
put up with taunts from my fellow human beings for my bizarre
behaviour of clock checking.
I simply had to go through the process if it was the last thing I did
in my life even after periods where I started getting variable
messages or no message in those years. The results I got were proof
enough for me. My questions were all answered to me as God had shown
to me through the digital clock checking for messages method that He
truly exists. Furthermore, God asked me to write this particular blog
unlike the previous ones that I have written myself without any
reference to Him in most cases. as a petrol station worker in
Sherlodge Garage with Sathi. And there was no interaction with God any
longer through the advaita clock checking mechanism. I find that I do
not now take any directions from God to guide my truth path like I had
done for a considerable period of time and which I have documented in
my diary file. God's instructions to stop clock checking for messages
on May 18, 2014 - today is a major turning point in my life as God has
made it very clear to me that I must not clock-check for specific
messages of guidance from Him any more.
What I used to do to receive God's guidance has been blogged but now I
am required to live like a mere mortal, not as God's Agent, and see
how that goes. During the past four months in particular I was engaged
in intensive work to check out the operation of the British Justice
System and understand how it works. This work was only accomplished
through detailed clock-checking for guidance from God on what actions
I should be taking in all my major involvements. I thought that clock
checking for messages could become a permanent thing for me now that I
had found a way to live according to God's wishes for me. But this
evening it has been made abundantly clear that this was only a passing
phase in my life. God has effectively forbidden me from any further
clock checking for guidance on my major actions including what I write
and blog in my website. He had attempted to stop me from clock
checking earlier but I found reasons to continue with the process as I
had not fully secured my objectives that I had in my involvements.
Part of this was to study God's nature. My temptation to attain
absolute snow-white perfection in what I did and wrote got me to
continue with the practice. Now I cannot ignore God's instructions for
me any more. So I have promised God that come what may I will not go
to seek guidance from Him on whatever bothers me in my life. I am
required to live like a human being for the rest of my life, and
abjure my Godly or minimum Avatar status. This evening's instruction
from God for me to stop clock checking for messages may or may not be
an indication that God has rejected my continuing advances to Him as a
source of intelligence and wisdom that I have benefitted from
enormously in the past. I have attained major achievements through the
process that I am proud of. So I felt that it was only right that I
should continue with seeking God's guidance for me. But God has said
No, for his own reasons that I can only speculate on. I am to live
without further assistance from Him. I must resist all temptations to
clock check in the future. So I have this evening promised Him that
come what may, I will never do any more clock checking for messages of
guidance. I am what I have updated myself with from all those months
and years of clock checking of my actions and writings.
Clock checking will prove meaningless from here on. So significant is
this turning point in terms of what I do in my future life that I
needed to blog this on my satya-advaita blogsite immediately upon the
realisation of what I am required to do. Date and time of posting
this, 18 May 2014, 9.27pm-9.31 pm British Summer Time. Then came the
26 July 2014 Update: I returned to advaitic clock checking several
times since this post when I felt desperately in need of having my
thoughts checked by God before acting and looking for messages from
Him in case I needed to act urgently in a particular way when dealing
with very tricky situations. God did come and help me again and again
when I needed him to do so. But today I feel that I have come to the
end of my mission as I do not wish to write any more new blogs and
tweets unless I need to from requests or prompts by others. So I am
once again terminating clock checking of my actions. The reason that I
am today alive with dignity that I feel I have achieved for myself as
a human being is that as I gradually got convinced through the clock-
checking advaitic mechanism that I developed for communications with
God that God was real and genuinely wanted to help me in my quest for
the truth and truth accommodation, I submitted myself to the will of
God in everything important that I did and was engaged in. I have
maintained a diary as a record of how I sought God's Guidance and
acted on it without harbouring any doubts that it constituted a
genuine conversation with God.
The clock checking mechanism is worth trillions of pounds. A sighting
of 7 (for example 8.17 am is a 7) was a message that I had to act on
something important in a particular way, with the rest of the numbers
of 1-9 meaning, 0 signifying rakshasas, no action was required or OK
to what I was proposing to do on some matter. God has helped me
immensely through such communications. It is a method of checking
one's thoughts with God's advice. It means that He is within us and
can make us think in certain ways. Indeed, it demonstrates that God
lives our lives as human beings and is in full control. The individual
does not realise that this is the case, so incredibly the interference
in our thoughts is hidden from our minds. It required me to approach
God through the device of a digital clock to get Him to make His
existence known to me in no uncertain manner. It was 100 per cent
reliable when it mattered to the issue that I was engaged in my
material existence. For anyone wishing to practice Brahmanism, that
is, total surrender to the will of God, the process of clock-checking
of one's actions needs to be followed.
When I examine my yoga over the past 10-15 years it is clear to me
that this process is absolutely necessary for it is the only means by
which one can actually acquire proof of the existence of God for
oneself. I returned to advaitic clock checking several times since 18
May 2014 when I felt desperately in need of having my thoughts checked
by God before acting and looking for messages from Him in case I
needed to act urgently in a particular way when dealing with very
tricky situations. God did come and help me again and again when I
needed him to do so. Following further truth-seeking studies with God
using clock checking to get to the truth, I have learnt that the only
religion created by God (Sri Krishna) for the land of Asia south of
the Himalayas is the original religion of Hinduism. All the others are
derived from the guna consciousness gods of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva.
Of these Christianity, Buddhism and multiculturalism are divine or
sattvic religions inspired through Brahma, whereas Islam and modern
Judaism are evil tamasic religions inspired through Sivaji Panesar. On
8 September 2014, a day on which I found myself in total seclusion,
including from God, as having exhausted all my opinion-sharing truth
seeking activities on the internet, following a period of study that
had lasted about 6 years, and on completion of all my clock-checking
activities comprising the direct consultations with God that I
narrated in a diary that I maintained from 20 July 2012 until this day
to describe the precise details of the reasons for my daily actions.
was not doing clock-checking any more to look for messages from Him.