Am I getting that someone tore you up about your art ? Please read all
of this ... at no time during my creative life have I been "usual". In
fact I often veer off the road ON PURPOSE, just to stir people up. It's
the nature of creativity. To want people to look, be spurred on to some
opinon that they might not have had before. "Cause ifyou did otherwise,
what fin is that ? Ifwe all did the sme stuff the same way, that's
creative mastrbation ! ( Whoops, bad word alert ! ) ... art is freedom
to choose and explore, your way. And all the critics are just voices.
They are not your creative heart and soul. Screw 'em ( whoops. bad word
alert again !) ... !!!!!
Lemme talk a little bit about my clown / performng character. I am flat
out, in your face different, and it is with intent that I poke others in
the eye, so to speak, because I want to be different and I want to make
a statement about performing. I never win awards at the competitions. I
cross too many lines and they have to shave off my edges to fit me in to
a convenient pigeonhole, and since I am claustrophobic and don't like
pigeonholes, I find myself standing alone, often on the fringes. I am
too cutting edge, too controversial. And I love it here ! I make them
look and I challege them to be different and 'cause them to explore
places they rarley go. I am top of the line on techniques, but my
vibrant little light, shines a different way. How could I respect myself
otherwise ! How could they ? I have been the horse of a different color
for so long, it doesn't occur to me to be otherwise ! Even if
begrudgingly, I get fingers pointed at me and ocassionally, someone will
seek me out and tell me they like me, but never in front of others. They
are afraid not to conform or appreciate what I am trying to do. Some
others consider themselves the grand high all ruling know it alls. and
if it suits 'em to be so, well, who am I to stop them from running off
at the mouth. Just let 'em squawk ! Some time back, the most high
reighning member of our performing community told me he liked me. Then a
couple of other higher ups did. The people who most matter realize what
I am. The rank and file is really busy trying to slither up the ladder
and to suck up ( whoops, bad word alert ) to people who compliment them,
that they really miss out. DO NOT get cought in a trap where someone has
criticized you unfairly and you let it get to you. Try to really
understand why ! SO tomorrow,
regional convention starts here in Vegas. I'll still compete, although
I won't win anything ... but I do get to stand up and proudly express
myself .... Oh yeah, I forgot the most important things, being true
to your artistic self is the goal, as is, knowing all that really
matters in the end is that audience or those patrons.
Rainbow