Bariki
2003-09-21 22:24:54 UTC
Hello all,
Enough lurking. I can't stand it any more. I have a big mouth, and want
to say something too!
Stormy's gather this weekend was great... thanks to everyone that turned
up and made it my best (and first) gather. And Arcaton, I know truly
understand why we have The Anvil here. >;)
It's weird. Since I got into all of this back in May this year, and then
realised that I was kidding myself with being a dragon, I haven't stopped
thinking about what I've given up. True, I have horses, can't argue with
that. But in a couple of weeks, I'll lose all the horses that mean
anything to me when I leave for Japan.
Perhaps it sounds a little selfish to want to hop back and forth between
draconity and 'horsiness', but I can't stop thinking about it. Have I
made too rash a decision in giving up my wings and scales? Or am I just a
little afraid of the unknown that is to be my life for the next few
weeks?
I guess that it's a little of both. I miss having draconic thoughts in my
head during the day, and at night. After all, they got me through my end
of year exams. >;) But I found it so hard to mix horsiness and draconity
together... why is that? My mate was OK about me letting go of my
draconic self, even when I thought I understood what it was that was
starting to stir within me. I am so thankful for that, at least. But
isn't it possible to let the horse and the dragon co-exist within me,
even if one (the horse) has a stronger influence over me than the other?
Some people have said no, others yes. Bugger. I was hoping for a clear-
cut answer. Ah, such is life.
So, I end my returning rant with two questions: can a person be wrong
twice about himself, and if so, can he still be forgiven for it? If so,
and if he is wrong for a third time, is there any hope left for figuring
out what the truth is?
Enough lurking. I can't stand it any more. I have a big mouth, and want
to say something too!
Stormy's gather this weekend was great... thanks to everyone that turned
up and made it my best (and first) gather. And Arcaton, I know truly
understand why we have The Anvil here. >;)
It's weird. Since I got into all of this back in May this year, and then
realised that I was kidding myself with being a dragon, I haven't stopped
thinking about what I've given up. True, I have horses, can't argue with
that. But in a couple of weeks, I'll lose all the horses that mean
anything to me when I leave for Japan.
Perhaps it sounds a little selfish to want to hop back and forth between
draconity and 'horsiness', but I can't stop thinking about it. Have I
made too rash a decision in giving up my wings and scales? Or am I just a
little afraid of the unknown that is to be my life for the next few
weeks?
I guess that it's a little of both. I miss having draconic thoughts in my
head during the day, and at night. After all, they got me through my end
of year exams. >;) But I found it so hard to mix horsiness and draconity
together... why is that? My mate was OK about me letting go of my
draconic self, even when I thought I understood what it was that was
starting to stir within me. I am so thankful for that, at least. But
isn't it possible to let the horse and the dragon co-exist within me,
even if one (the horse) has a stronger influence over me than the other?
Some people have said no, others yes. Bugger. I was hoping for a clear-
cut answer. Ah, such is life.
So, I end my returning rant with two questions: can a person be wrong
twice about himself, and if so, can he still be forgiven for it? If so,
and if he is wrong for a third time, is there any hope left for figuring
out what the truth is?
--
~Bariki
The Silver Stallion of the Sky
Cavalry Commander for Siggy's Legions of Darkness
~Bariki
The Silver Stallion of the Sky
Cavalry Commander for Siggy's Legions of Darkness